For a few weeks, maternity clothes and I lived together in bliss. I was happy to have pants without zippers or buttons, and flowy shirts that hid my bump, or tighter shirts that showed it off in a good way.
Fast forward to now, when I think that what I really need is a clothing store/department called, "So you've given up on life." I feel like they would have what I'm looking for: the ultimate in comfort and stretchiness, while not making me feel bad about myself. I'm having a much harder time with my body image with this pregnancy than when I was pregnant with Evie.
I'm stressing more about this right now because we have a big party this weekend for my parents-in-law. I didn't plan on being pregnant in July with 90 degree heat at a party in a park where I will undoubtedly be chasing my two year old EVERYWHERE.
Oh, and add to that the fact that I feel hideous (even when I'm not sitting in a pool of my sweat with a toddler hanging off of me) and I can't decide on anything to wear. I bought a cute new dress while I was in Spain, but it's a little big on me at this point in my pregnancy. I'm going to attempt to rig it up with some pins to see if it will fit decently, but I'm doubtful, and to be honest, I won't have a ton of time to monkey around with it on Saturday morning.
|Cute Spain dress|
I also bought a new shirt in Panama, but I would need an undershirt for it because the material is a little transparent. Did you know that it's impossible to find flesh-colored neutral maternity tank tops???? I know I could probably find something online, but I'm not much of an online shopper (I like the rush of making my purchases in a store), and the party is less than 48 hours away.
|Panamanian Bargain Buy ($6!!!)|
I'll probably just end up wearing the same black dress that I wore to all nice occasions when I was pregnant with Evie. I feel like it's a tired article of clothing...basically, I'm sick of it, but I have limited time and options right now.
|Black dress: cute, but I'm just not feeling it|
I think the crux of the issue is that I don't feel like I look good in anything. I just don't feel pretty right now. I picture myself looking decent and then I look in the mirror and see a very different image. I know it's all in my head, but I worry that I'll never feel like I look good again. I lost the weight quickly and easily (really without trying at all) with Evie, and what if that doesn't happen this time? What if I have a closet full of non-maternity clothes that don't look good on me either?
In the meantime, I'm thinking of opening a boutique. I'll sell yoga pants and hooded sweatshirts. Hair bands and sports bras sold separately....