I feel like I could write a year's worth of posts related to Evie's first birthday. I have always been a pretty reflective person...maybe it's the teacher in me. I always think, "How could I do it differently? How could I get a better result?" Anytime I teach a new lesson, I mentally file away (or, when I'm feeling extra organized, I actually write down) how I could do it better next time.
As Evie rapidly approaches her first birthday (only 8 more days!), I feel like I'm doing the same thing as a parent. When I look back at some of the obstacles that we've faced in the past year, I question myself as to how I could have done it better. Maybe if I hadn't held her through all of those naps on my maternity leave, we wouldn't have had our daycare drama in January. (Our daycare provider (in-home, state certified) talked us into Ferber/CIO because Evie wouldn't nap for her. We no longer use that daycare.) Speaking of that, I wouldn't do something that I wasn't completely comfortable with.
I think that the biggest thing that I would change is my own attitude. Self-confidence has never been one of my strongest features. I know that as Evie gets older, I'm going to need to stick to my guns more and more. M and I will have to follow our own instincts and trust that we're doing the right thing, regardless of what anyone else says.
Obviously, I can't go back and do it all again. I can't blame myself for any mistakes either. I just have to keep learning. As Evie grows up, I suppose I'll grow up as a mommy too.